Reality check:
For f*ck's sake. I'm of the understanding that you're broke. Buy something cheap. Money you save on a car can go into a house or savings, and actually make you something, or you can keep buying cars you can't quite afford to fix and maintain and keep losing ridiculous amounts by half fixing them then getting rid. If you're going to have a project car, the only way to do it is to keep it. You'll never get back what you put into a car in terms of mods and repairs when it comes to selling it.